i tend to think that my plans are better than God's. that i somehow know exactly what i need and exactly how i need to get it. oh, how i couldn't be more wrong. i sometimes wonder if God looks at me and smiles, thinking "oh, lauren. how silly of you to think that you're in control and you know what's best. i created you, after all. don't you trust me and the plan that i have for you?" i do trust God and i know that He has a perfect plan for me, but what scares me is the unknown. not knowing where i will be and what i will be doing. not knowing who i will be around and how my everyday life will be. like i said, i like to plan things, so not being able to plan is kind of a struggle for me.
but, i'm learning to let go.
to trust that God will lead me where He wants me, not necessarily where i think i should be.
to rest in the truth that the Creator of the world knows me by name and knows what i need.
kind of amazing, isn't it?
and when i look at it that way, i would much rather He be in control than me.